《知足》

*Translated from my favourite song by Mayday - Contentment 《知足》

'How I can own a rainbow?',
'How I can embrace the whole summer of wind...?'
The stars above never stop laughing at human beings below,
wonder why they will never know how to be contented.

If I were in love with your smiling face,
how can I own it and keep it forever?
If your happiness does not come from me,
so is letting go actually the real means of owning you?

When Wind glides together with Kite in the sky,
Im so moved and pray for their love to be eternal
and that's all because of you.

Only when you finally slipped away from my life,
I started to realise that
to laugh in wailings is the most painful thing I could ever do.

Recalling the day when you and I sang so freely on that hill,
Songs and memories like that are so sufficient
Enough for me to sleep in loneliness,
and again I realised that to laugh in wailing is the most painful thing I could ever do.

If your happiness no longer comes from me,
I will hold my pain and learn to be happy in contentment.

Snog Crush <3

Was supposed to mug over the weekend but couldn't help getting myself a long stroll at the Upmarket in WhiteChapel. Sigh, i know i know ... it must be the depressingly low £-RM exchange rate that urged me to spend away more of these devalued pounds! (It was 5.556 when im writing this post entry!!! :S)

Had a Spanish Chicken Empanada, which costed me only £2.80 (RM 15.56). It's like a chicken-filling pastry served with a big portion of Malaga salad (cold potato salad)...

Ren Yin and I with that spanish cuisine...

On the way back from Upmarket, suddenly another glutton housemate of mine suggested to go for a new product called SNOG (£2.50= RM 13.89) - basically it's just some sort of frozen yoghurt which tasted like the icey thingy sold in 7-11 in Malaysia. But you can choose to add your toppings for an extra 65p (RM3.61) each. As for me, i added some nuts mix so the whole 'Little Snog' burnt another 3.50 holes(would be19.45 holes if in Malaysia) in my pocket.

Happy Stella with her new crush - 'Little Snog'

'Snogging is good for you' - Erm yea, if £1 is still = RM 7

>.<

短暂

还以为掩饰得很好的寂寞不曾流泪
白昼被深藏的它却连夜在梦中哭泣

还以为已经习惯在没有你们的日子里坚强
深夜的哀怨却出卖了我胆小与懦弱

然
令人害怕的并不是曝露出的寂寞
亦不是时而变小的坚强
而是在分秒间游行的它正消耗着我不想放开的每一刻
而是在无常间幻变的它正考验着我到底有多想拥有多一些certainties
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一直都还在想着她的事。她母亲在短短的两个星期内，从诊断出大肠有异物直到动手术后，忽然就离开了。一直都在想着她到底如何面对这样突如其来的噩耗，想着在台湾的他到底怎样按奈着悲伤的痛乘飞机来出席一个突如其来的葬礼。
前两天的一大清早，头脑就一直毫无原因的浮现‘树欲静而风不止，子欲养而亲不在’这句话，直到我定下神开始上课为止。到了深夜入眠时，这样的梦竟也套进去了。害得我一整天为了梦里亲人的离开而悲伤不已。
也许我这个人比较多愁善感。每次听到这样的消息，总会开始感到害怕。害怕时间走得太快，让我来不及去好好爱我身边的每一个人。也开始发现与父母及家人相处的时间是多么的短暂。要说我笨也好，想太多也好，现在的我说有多想就有多想要抛开时间，回到过去弥补一直创下的遗憾与伤痕。多想好好的对他们说声我爱你，好好的说声对不起，好好的拥抱，好好的亲吻。

人生 - too little time, too much to do.

*Decided to translate the beginning part into english so that my dear Royah could read it. :)

I thought i hide it well - the loneliness that nvr cries
But to my surprise,
it has been wailing every single night all this while

I thought I'm used to it - the strong will to live on without you all
But to my surprise again,
the darkness of night has been moaning over my cowardness again and again

However,
it is not the loneliness that frightens me
nor is the shrinking sturdiness in me
but the walking time that has been taking away, bit by bit, all the moments Im so unwilling to let go
and also the changing world that makes me to desire a tiny fraction of certainties out of so much uncertainties.

'Too much to do, too little time'
Life has always been like this.
C'est la vie.

My Pet Brother and I

Stella adopted a pet named Alex last summer. Details of the pet are as follows:

Name: Alex Ng

Gender: Male Age: 18

Hobbies: ONLINE gaming, watching manga ONLINE, downloading&uploading ONLINE stuff that im too old to know, ONLINE chatting, ONLINE courting, ONLINE ONLINE ONLINE etc..

Favourite food: ANYTHING, as long as u feed directly into his mouth

Job: TARC business admin diploma student

Status: Single and Available (yea, im looking for a gf for my pet!)

Oppsss...I've nearly forgotten one of his most-love past-time!

------------------------> Imitating his master's act!

And just at the very end of the summer before Stella came back to the UK, she found another potential pet ...

Erm....well...she looks like a goldfish who hungers for food...Perhaps Stella should keep her as her Fishy pet sister? =P

Yay, Im back in Mamak Stall Again...

First post after coming back from Malaysia will surely be an update on my new room. Because Im sure most of you will be SoooOOooo interested mar, right right? Hahaha...

My new 'single' partitioned room is actually a living room being divided into 2 so-called rooms by cupboards and softboard/room dividers. So yea, my lovely housemate (or roommate?) is still Shi Chian. Heee...

Let's have a look!

The living room...

My room. The empty bit will be covered by my cupboard which is YET to arrive! (grrr...thanks to stupid Argos..)

Study table and bed

These room dividers have slits of holes that ppl can peep through. So I covered them with mahjong papers, pictures (yea, WL ur pics are up!), my lovely Fish Leong's poster and wall planner. Might look a bit dodgy but dont care la, not like im gonna stay in there for the rest of my life!

So...not too bad right? Hee :)

Goodbye Malaysia

Time flies and good times always slipped away silently at our least attention.

Yea ... it's time to say goodbye again to Summer 2008, time to bid farewell to my love ones in Malaysia again. Sweet memories, sour moments, laughter, tears and faces that I love so much creeped in and out when every single moment was spent.

Their teary eyes and bright smile out of the joy of my surprise coming-back are still touching deep down my heart whenever i recall them.

Close-knit feelings were so much felt among us.

Truly, this summer has brought so much love that i could ever imagine I myself have embedded for them.

Daddy, Mommy, Ying and Hou, thank you so much for putting such a beautiful yet lovely ending to my summer this year. For all the love you all have shown for me, I shall be a stronger person to face the life alone for another or many years to come.

Ban Tieng and Sin Wei, thank you so much for letting me know that bonds made in a true friendship will never get brittled and shall stay as strong as how our friendship has shown.

And finally to A. Martin, thank you sooOOooo much for everything.

I love you. Every single one of you.