傍晚时分

傍晚7时45分
女孩再次步入家鼠笼
踏上磅秤 往左调的针向让她嘴角苦涩一扬 也分不出是什么样的心情
戴上他送给她的耳机 让曹格的嘶吼淹没笼里的阵阵轰隆
“为什麽爱上你的人是我
为什麽一厢情愿的人会难过为什麽对你舍不得 总是我…………”
看着跑步机荧幕上的数字不断跳升
心跳随之狂奔 不断和负情绪厮杀 体温亦如冲锋陷阵似的猛飙
思潮依然被许多问号围攻 一步步往后退 甚至最后干脆缩成一团不反抗了

侧头一看在旁边同样猛冲的男生
和她穿着一样的白衬衫黑热裤
踏着同样规律的步伐 胸口同样的呼吸起伏
一时间的错觉 让她以为如此美丽的频率可以延续至永远
却忘了男孩只不过是空间与时间的一时交错
女孩忽然明白了什么 却又不舍些什么
傍晚8点30分
回家的路上 又多了一份无法整理的惆怅

dont comment pls

我多希望生命有个停顿 让我接受这残酷的安排
或者就别再让我继续呼吸
因为现在的我就连呼吸也会心痛
或者就让我一直沉睡
因为现在我的白天亦如茫茫深夜
看不见你 看不见我 看不见都看不见
我
到底在哪
伤心得快感觉不到自己了

请允许我顾影自怜
请让我独自沉醉在这极度悲伤
请别安慰我
请别要我知足感恩惜福
请就让我任性一场

Blessed

Thank you so much for coming down all the way from Manchester and Warwick.
Even though was only a very short weekend together we spent, the memories created are going to warm my heart forever.
I feel so blessed and loved.
Each and everyone of you has a special in my heart, even my life.
Again, thank you for being such good friends of mine and yea, I know that's gonna be forever :)

~KMB, 2006~

~London, 2009~

Deep shit in the making

I tried to read Chapter 3, Principles of Fermentation Technology.
Spent the WHOLE day. Only 10/80 pages were read.
Ok maybe not a textbook-reading day for me.
Thinking maybe I should knock on A. Martin's msn ..
so there I spent couple of hours chatting. Bug on him to get me a birthday present.
'Did I give u my address?' 'No, why?' 'Here it is, jot it down.'
'ok done.' 'Good, xx is my birthday, get me a present. And im expecting it. Thank you. You may go now.'
Martin was aghasted at how I forced him to buy. I dont care. I seriously need to bully someone to chase this silly blueness in my chest away.
But such random tattle didnt pull me out from depression mode. Not at all.
Still feel like a spectre roaming aimlessly in Flat 1 Montrose House.

Night time falls.
Alright, time to mug on journalssssssss (i dono how many s i have to put to show its abundance)
171 pages in total. That's only one.
Mug mug mug. Facebook fb fb fb fb fb. Mug. fb fb fb fb fb fb fb fb fb. Mug. fb fb fb fb fb fb fb fb fb fb fb fb fb fbb fb. Mu... facebook. Journal left unread. Again. (11.35 pm; 7/171 done)

Argggghhhhhhhhhhhhh
how can i be so unproductive???????????????
If such symptom persists, I will be in DEEP HOT SHIT in less than TWO BLOODY MONTHS WHEN FINAL EXAMS COME.

Ugh, I hate this.

White London

I believe most londoners have posted similar entry on this. Tell me what can be more exciting than the heaviest snowfall in nearly 2 decades in the UK? The ''adverse'' (well to me there is nothing better than this :P) weather condition has brought London to a standstill. Most lectures were cancelled (oh well not for mine anyway, still have lab work till 5 pm! Biochem is such a saddist i knoowwww!!), transport system was closed/delayed, but who cares!! It was a day to celebrate, a day to be spent in the park playing snow, building snowman and forming troop for a snow war!!


Come, let me feed your eyes with the mesmerising view of Hyde Park in its innocent white.

Trees dusted with icing sugar :P

Stella posing in Winter-sonata style.

Royal Albert Hall

The joy of snow was definitely of great savour. But ... what about the homeless ones ... ? Hmm..

P.S. For more pictures on snow in London, please visit my facebook page. :)

Happy Birthday Everybody!!!人日快乐！

Happy Birthday to everyone!!!! Today is the 7th day of Chinese New Year i.e. everybody's birthday. According to the chinese legend, Lady Wa (女娲) created human beings on the 7th day, preceded by chicken, dog, pig, goat, ox, horse in chronological order.

Our house had 'Yee Sang' this morning and headed for the Open House hosted by London MCA Club in MSD. Queued up for 15 minutes for a plate of nasi bryani+small tiny little chunk (couldn't be smaller but better than none) of ayam masak merah+ kari kambing+a bit vege. Atmosphere was kinda merry-making and I would have enjoyed more if it wasn't the tonnes of work kept emerging subconsciously to instigate me home.

And it snowweeeddddddddddddd and is still snowing quite heavily now outside!!!!!!!!! I wasn't praticularly fond of snow during my first 2 years in London, but somehow today I was indeed quite excited to walk under the snow. And that surprised myself a little too :D Letting the snow flakes to kiss on my cold blushing cheeks again and again as I paced through the park, is sooo romantic and poetic to me. Heee! What an incorrigible woman living in her own illusion! :P I even sticked my tongue out to have a taste of snow! Hee. Cool right?

Ok, go back to work 1st. Will be back with more entries, with more photos perhaps.

*.*HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!*.*
~ From Sze Hwei with LOVEEEEEEE